Gearing Up

 

      It's that time of year again. You know when the portable office supplies seem to appear on the shelves and disappear just as quickly. Parents and guardians are running around like the proverbial chicken with it's head cut off, just trying to but everything on the list. All the while praying that the teacher won't give them a new one on the first day of school. This year is a little different for my little big family and I. Hubby and I have chosen to start homeschooling Goosie and Miniman. I have conferred with my already homeschooling sister and a few friends and although I am prepared, I must admit that this year may be found a little more daunting then past years.
     There is fear. Fear that I will not be able to teach them, fear that some how homeschooling won't work out and they will go back to public school. Then I remember who their mom is. I remember that I helped ever so slightly in their creation, I was just the vessel after all. Yes, my little blessings were created with me in mind. They challenge me, question me and overwhelm me all so wonderfully. And now we are choosing to teach them. In reality I have been their longest teacher. I have taught them how to walk, talk, feed themselves, play, run, ride bicycles, and so very much more. I have been their teacher from the beginning, so teaching them school shouldn't be that much of a stretch. After all, I just have to remember what equipment I will be working with.
     While it is the same equipment I have had all along, now it will simply be used with a different purpose in mind. Sure there is a part of me that doesn't want to do this. It's that same part of me that thinks I will never be good enough. That other's could do what I am going to do much easier because they have gone to college for it, they have been trained. The truth of the matter is that I have gone to "college" for this and the last nine years of my life I have been training for this position. So the curriculum has been chosen, the majority of the year is mapped out. I have already planned a field trip to the history museum. All very exciting.
      Hubby has been on leave the past month and he will soon be going back to work. I have also started a new job, at a hotel in guest services. It will only be a few nights a week, which is manageable. My days are filling up and with them the nights as well. Housework will be on the side back burner as will other things. I must admit that I have been praying, a lot. Prayer is my best defense after all. I am thinking of getting up early in the morning and walking the neighborhood. It will be nice to have quiet time outside of the house. Then it will be home and time to get ready for school to start. Goosie and Miniman are both looking forward to the start of the school year. Right now I think I am experiencing the calm before the storm. I am confidant that the peace I feel now will carry me through the school year.
       The video posted above is a good reminder of who I am and what my mission is in this life. I am not some random person who just happened to be who and where I am at this point in time. I was born in this time for a reason. Although fear and doubt may at times plague me. I have the assurance of who my Heavenly Father is, knowing that as long as I lay myself down, He can accomplish His work in me. Yes, it means that I die every second of the day, but it also means that I live. I am a child of the One True King and there is nothing that I cannot accomplish with Him. Without him? Well that is different all together. Until next time Dear Readers, Be Blessed!