This morning before many of us awoke for the day, my little second cousin Anna departed this world to be with Jesus. I am saddened and at a loss for words for my cousin's as I could never imagine letting one of my little ones go. I know that Anna had been struggling and fighting for the past year, that she had endurance and grace for each moment as did her parents. I never met little Anna, I had just seen pictures and what a sweet child she was. I saw her little smiles in pictures and knew how they warmed her parent's hearts.
I have already called my cousins and expressed my sympathy's. I write now with tears in my eyes as I think of the blessing they were so richly blessed with for such a short time. I know that little Anna is with Jesus and has experienced the ultimate healing, she is no longer in pain or suffers for a breath, she is free. That is all for now.
Count your blessings, hold them close to you. You never know how much time you have here on this earth because there is so much more for us in heaven.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Christmas Thoughts
It's Christmas Eve and while I could let what bothered me ruin my day, I won't. I called my sister N and she let me vent, it felt good to let it out to someone who is understanding and in a way refreshes me and reminds me of all the blessings in my life.
I am sitting here at my computer, Bubbles is nursing away in my lap, Hubby and the older two are making cookies for Santa. Hubby and I have yet to wrap everything, we plan on doing it after the kids are in bed tonight.
I have much to reflect upon this past year. Goosie started school, I know that I was less ready for this then she was. I am not sure if Miniman is more independent or less. I think less, he always seems to be right under me. Bubbles was welcomed into our lives. We are blessed by her smiles each day and every night when she falls asleep in my arms I am struck with an awe inspiring love for each of my sweet babies and the love of my life. I am blessed beyond all measure and for that I am grateful.
There are so many who go through this life with so much less then what we have and I am grateful for all of it. My wonderful family, both here with me in the house and scattered about in the different nooks and cranny's of the world, I hold each of you in my heart and pray that your hopes for the new year all come to fruition. My friends all scattered and yet somewhat clumped, I think of you each daily and hope that you are well. It is Christmas Eve, there is so much to be thought about and even more to be thankful for. I miss those of you who I no longer see as much as I used to, for those that I do see I miss you when I don't see you.
There is something I learned a long time ago. When I was younger I used to live for those around me, what ever it took to make them happy is what I did. I wasn't always happy, but I thought I was doing the right thing by attempting to make others happy. I was wrong. I know now that when it comes to those who truly love me as I am, they have always encouraged me to do what makes me happy. Unless it was self destructive. I know now that what makes them happy is seeing that I am happy. Since having this revelation I know think of others happiness and let them know that it is ultimately what makes them happy that will make me happy for them. So many thoughts to think, so many blessings to count, and hopefully some wisdom to pass along to the next generation. I have so many wonderful things to live for and pray each day that I will live long enough to see my children living in the happy contentment that I enjoy now. Merry Christmas and may God richly bless you in the coming New Year. If you have not asked God to be your lord and savior, I challenge you to search within yourself and find that we all need a savior, we are so blessed that one was born to save us and is the reason for the season, and every breath we are blessed enough to take.
I am sitting here at my computer, Bubbles is nursing away in my lap, Hubby and the older two are making cookies for Santa. Hubby and I have yet to wrap everything, we plan on doing it after the kids are in bed tonight.
I have much to reflect upon this past year. Goosie started school, I know that I was less ready for this then she was. I am not sure if Miniman is more independent or less. I think less, he always seems to be right under me. Bubbles was welcomed into our lives. We are blessed by her smiles each day and every night when she falls asleep in my arms I am struck with an awe inspiring love for each of my sweet babies and the love of my life. I am blessed beyond all measure and for that I am grateful.
There are so many who go through this life with so much less then what we have and I am grateful for all of it. My wonderful family, both here with me in the house and scattered about in the different nooks and cranny's of the world, I hold each of you in my heart and pray that your hopes for the new year all come to fruition. My friends all scattered and yet somewhat clumped, I think of you each daily and hope that you are well. It is Christmas Eve, there is so much to be thought about and even more to be thankful for. I miss those of you who I no longer see as much as I used to, for those that I do see I miss you when I don't see you.
There is something I learned a long time ago. When I was younger I used to live for those around me, what ever it took to make them happy is what I did. I wasn't always happy, but I thought I was doing the right thing by attempting to make others happy. I was wrong. I know now that when it comes to those who truly love me as I am, they have always encouraged me to do what makes me happy. Unless it was self destructive. I know now that what makes them happy is seeing that I am happy. Since having this revelation I know think of others happiness and let them know that it is ultimately what makes them happy that will make me happy for them. So many thoughts to think, so many blessings to count, and hopefully some wisdom to pass along to the next generation. I have so many wonderful things to live for and pray each day that I will live long enough to see my children living in the happy contentment that I enjoy now. Merry Christmas and may God richly bless you in the coming New Year. If you have not asked God to be your lord and savior, I challenge you to search within yourself and find that we all need a savior, we are so blessed that one was born to save us and is the reason for the season, and every breath we are blessed enough to take.
Friday, December 19, 2008
More pictures of the kids..
Goosie wanted her hair curled too..
Goosie and Miniman all ready to go to the Christmas program!
Goosie all dressed up and ready to go!
My handsome Miniman, boy am I in trouble lator!
Pictures of the kids.. and me too!
Bubbles waiting Patiently for her food. One of the cutest babies Ever!
Miniman, with his ever present plug.. those blue eyes get me everytime!
Me before I colored my hair, Hubby didn't know I knew how to curl my hair!
Curly and after my coloring! I think I look good, all the grey is covered up too!Oh the Memories..
In just a few days, on the 21st to be exact, will be the anniversary of the start of the happiest time in my life. Hubby proposed. He was creative in the way he asked too. I had told him that every year regardless I always get a book for Christmas. That year I got the book I treasure above all others. The one he proposed to me with. He cut out the middle of some pages and placed the ring box inside. The title of the book is "The Hundred Secret Senses", when I first opened the gift I thought I had received another book, upon opening the book, I read the inscription and saw the ring. I didn't know it was coming. But I am glad that it did. We decided to celebrate Christmas early that year because we were going to see my Aunt H and Uncle L for the holiday. That was 7 years ago, we were married February of 2003 and will be celebrating 6 years this coming year.
There were many nay sayer's when it came to the start of our fairy tale relationship, the biggest was perhaps the one that wanted to believe the most that relationships like ours were still possible, my sister S.
This past year S has been in her own fairy tale, I am to say the least ecstatic and excited for her as her tale unfolds with more love and happiness she had hoped for. I know that at times she is as overwhelmed by her gift but all the more grateful for it. The memories we make last a lifetime, least we forget a life time is never long enough to enjoy the ones we love and appreciate the most.
There were many nay sayer's when it came to the start of our fairy tale relationship, the biggest was perhaps the one that wanted to believe the most that relationships like ours were still possible, my sister S.
This past year S has been in her own fairy tale, I am to say the least ecstatic and excited for her as her tale unfolds with more love and happiness she had hoped for. I know that at times she is as overwhelmed by her gift but all the more grateful for it. The memories we make last a lifetime, least we forget a life time is never long enough to enjoy the ones we love and appreciate the most.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Happenings and Happenstance
The A.T.C. was a bust, Hubby ended up sick the entire weekend, so I had to go to the formal dinner/awards ceremony alone. The kids were in childcare, they seemed to enjoy themselves, but Bubbles wouldn't let me out of her sight since we have been home. Both Goosie and Miniman have the dreaded pink eye, Goosie's is coupled with an ear infection and Miniman has a Dr's appointment later today to see what all he had going on. Besides not letting me out of her sight, Bubbles is doing well, except she is teething. It is so hard to see your little one in pain and knowing that it is unavoidable. I give her Tylenol and Motrin as the Dr prescribed and generally just try to keep her content. Enough complaining, I will move on.
Today I am making cookies for Goosies first Christmas program at school. I am already so proud of her! She has been working so hard on the songs and has all the moves down too. I still can't believe she is four! Time goes by so quickly especially with little ones, that if you blink or turn away for even a moment you have missed something. Hubby has promised to make up the formal dinner to me later when he is feeling better. He was diagnosed with a viral upper respiratory infection and is slowly getting better. I try to encourage him as much as I can and take care of him as much as he will let me. Yes, we are all stocked up on chicken soup and if we run out, I know how to make more! The Christmas season is upon us and there are still so many things to do. It has become a tradition that we make Jesus a birthday cake every year and sing him Happy Birthday. We also read the story of Christ's birth, and tell each other the wonderful things we are thankful for that God did that year in our lives. The kids know about Santa and when they get older I will explain it more to them. Something else I plan on doing is each of my kids donating toys to someone less fortunate. I want to encourage them to not only receive at Christmas, but to also be givers. Well, I am all typed out for now. I hope all is well with you and yours, Merry Christmas and may the reason for the season be with you throughout the New Year!
Today I am making cookies for Goosies first Christmas program at school. I am already so proud of her! She has been working so hard on the songs and has all the moves down too. I still can't believe she is four! Time goes by so quickly especially with little ones, that if you blink or turn away for even a moment you have missed something. Hubby has promised to make up the formal dinner to me later when he is feeling better. He was diagnosed with a viral upper respiratory infection and is slowly getting better. I try to encourage him as much as I can and take care of him as much as he will let me. Yes, we are all stocked up on chicken soup and if we run out, I know how to make more! The Christmas season is upon us and there are still so many things to do. It has become a tradition that we make Jesus a birthday cake every year and sing him Happy Birthday. We also read the story of Christ's birth, and tell each other the wonderful things we are thankful for that God did that year in our lives. The kids know about Santa and when they get older I will explain it more to them. Something else I plan on doing is each of my kids donating toys to someone less fortunate. I want to encourage them to not only receive at Christmas, but to also be givers. Well, I am all typed out for now. I hope all is well with you and yours, Merry Christmas and may the reason for the season be with you throughout the New Year!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Just some stuff
It is the start of a weekend. A short one anyway. Hubby will be working until at least 5pm today, so it is just me and the kids. Tomorrow we will be going to church and just relaxing. I am trying to get Bubbles ready for the ATC next weekend. The kids will be watched throughout the day and some of the night. I need to prepare her to be with out her nursies whenever she wants them. I also have to make a slight alteration on my dress for the formal and try out my hair with the curlers I bought yesterday before the big day. I also need to give myself a pedicure and make sure that I look as good as I want before the big day.
There is so much to do and I am just hoping that it will all get done. I want the house to be clean because someone will be staying here while we are gone. And I am stickler for my house being clean! So much to do. There is still all the things that need to be done on the other end. I am the family readiness group leader for the company and although it's not my job to make sure that everything runs smoothly for the ATC, I still want to do all I can to help.
Well, it looks like my time is up , the kids are awake from their nap and it's time to get things started again. By the way I started this post at one time and finished it at another..
There is so much to do and I am just hoping that it will all get done. I want the house to be clean because someone will be staying here while we are gone. And I am stickler for my house being clean! So much to do. There is still all the things that need to be done on the other end. I am the family readiness group leader for the company and although it's not my job to make sure that everything runs smoothly for the ATC, I still want to do all I can to help.
Well, it looks like my time is up , the kids are awake from their nap and it's time to get things started again. By the way I started this post at one time and finished it at another..
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Just me Venting again
Today has been a salt shaker. By that I mean that everything that was planned was put in a shaker and the shaking commenced with nothing coming out. I had a meeting today and it seems I am not reaching out as much as the commander wants me to when it comes to the family members. So that is something I need to work on. I have realized the importance of my cell phone, I was running late and was unable to call Hubby to let him know so consequently his day is all off schedule. Needless to say I will never leave home without said cell phone and will always have minutes on it.
On a different note I seem to get snapped at a lot. Sometimes it feels like I am precariously walking through a swamp of over protective momma gators. I know better then to take it personally. But come on I need a break too. Hubby has been on some serious meds for almost 5 years, he is now in the process of lowering the dosage of said meds with the help of his doctor. I know that he is going through some pretty tough stuff right now and that he snaps at things he would not usually snap at. So I try to let things slide off my back like water on a duck. He always apologizes and I know that he and I are alike in that we beat ourselves up mentally harder then anyone ever could. So I don't make a big deal out of any of it. I know it is just the meds and not the man I married. He is seeing a new Dr now and that should help monumentally, this one actually knows what they are doing.
Well, on some good notes, the kids are all doing well. Hubby and I are also doing great and things are looking up. I think and therefore I am positive, my frame of mind has everything to do with my circumstance and I can change my outlook just by changing my point of view. Enough for now I will type more later!
On a different note I seem to get snapped at a lot. Sometimes it feels like I am precariously walking through a swamp of over protective momma gators. I know better then to take it personally. But come on I need a break too. Hubby has been on some serious meds for almost 5 years, he is now in the process of lowering the dosage of said meds with the help of his doctor. I know that he is going through some pretty tough stuff right now and that he snaps at things he would not usually snap at. So I try to let things slide off my back like water on a duck. He always apologizes and I know that he and I are alike in that we beat ourselves up mentally harder then anyone ever could. So I don't make a big deal out of any of it. I know it is just the meds and not the man I married. He is seeing a new Dr now and that should help monumentally, this one actually knows what they are doing.
Well, on some good notes, the kids are all doing well. Hubby and I are also doing great and things are looking up. I think and therefore I am positive, my frame of mind has everything to do with my circumstance and I can change my outlook just by changing my point of view. Enough for now I will type more later!
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