Just me ranting

I am the mother of three wonderful children and everyday I am challenged by them. I hear often the phrase "boy, you have your hands full! ", and I wonder if maybe I had them too close together. I love my sweet babies, don't get me wrong. They take allot out of me and there are times I want to put my time and attention into something else. I enjoy reading, sewing and many other things, yet when I do have time without the kids or Hubby I am at a loss as to what to do with myself.
I am a wife first, a mom second, a sister and daughter third and my friends come next, then after all of the titles I change in and out of on a daily basis I then if I have enough time put on the title of ME. There is just one problem, I think Me is getting lost somewhere.
In the Me getting lost I am wondering how much everything else is suffering. I am I loving and appreciating hubby the way he needs to be? What about my kids, family and friends? There are other times I feel that I am forgotten. I am invisible and the things I do don't matter. Then I get a sort of wake up call from one of the kids and I am set straight again. How is this all supposed to be done? Can one person really do it all? What does a picture of a working family look like? I am almost certain it wouldn't look like my family. Hubby and I try, and that is really all we can do.
So this is me, reaching out the the vastness of the Internet asking if I am alone in all of this or if there is someone who actually understands. I guess I will find out.

All Moved In, But not quite...

We are moved in, well mostly. There is still a lot of unpacking to do and there are a few more loads that need to be brought to the new house. I went this early afternoon and packed up the rest of the house. It sure is not a little bit of work. I am surprised that I have been able to get so much done. My parents are coming to visit and Mom promised that she would help me go through the boxes in the basement. Dad is going to paint the dining room a color more attune to our tastes and as the owner left all the paint, it won't be hard to repaint it the pale pink it is now. A dining room in pink?
The kitchen I am not sure if it has more or less space then the last one. I will have to get everything situated and let you know. I have already done some gardening and there is a bit of landscaping I am thinking of doing in the spring. There is just this one bare spot that if it could just be covered up a bit I think the yard would come together.
Well, thank you all for reading this much I will post some pictures later tonight. I have to get dinner started and check the laundry.... I think it will take some time to get used to the washer and dryer being in the basement, I know when I get my own house I want the washer and dryer beside the bedrooms even if that means they are on the second floor. Walking up and down two flights of stairs with clean/dirty laundry is giving me a work out!

A Blurb of things happening

Moving day is upon us, only 2 more days to pack as much as I can by myself. Hubby helps when he can, but work has been keeping him extra busy. The kids are adjusting well to the idea of moving. Goosie is exited that we will go to the "big house" soon. I too am excited and can already see the house with our furniture and things arranged in my head. Everything is scheduled to be turned on/off and in place. In reality we could move in today but I still have a good bit of packing to do. Today's entry will be short. There is so much for me to do and so little time to do it all. I hope that you are all well and in some state of happiness. I will have to sign off for now as I need to pack lunches and get the kids ready to go to my bible study.

My Family (a picture blog)

This is Goosie, on her first day of Preschool. I am so proud of her! She is getting so very big. For those of you reading this that haven't seen her since she was 6 months old, I think you will agree that time passes too quickly. She amazes me everyday and I am blessed to have her in my life and still in awe that she is my daughter!
















This is Miniman! And yes, that is the sweater I knitted him. I had him put it on one morning and he didn't want to take it off the rest of the day. I knew when I met his Daddy that my life would be changed. When Miniman entered the picture m heart was once again stolen away by striking blue eyes and a captivating smile. I am blessed to be his mom!

Here she is. Bubbles. We have decided that she is our last.

At least we think she is. Everyday she brightens our lives with her smiles coos and laughter. She reminds me to stop and pay attention because childhood is over in the blink of an eye. What will the future hold for my sweet baby girl , only God knows and I put my trust in him.

This is Hubby. He doesn't smile much, but he is all mine. Hubby doesn't complete me, he compliments me and I him. I truly believe God brought us together. Yes, he is in the ARMY, he wears his uniform with pride. He is the most stoic, determined, thoughtful and caring person I know. I know that I am blessed to have him as my husband.

Here he is at

school with Goosie. He was able to go to school for her first three

days. He is a wonderful Father, I couldn't ask for better for our children!

My Only Prayer

I wrote this 11 years ago when I was 17.

Dear Heavenly Father,
Help me walk this road today. I know sometimes I will stumble and I will stray. Help me be the kind of person you want to use in every way. Help me show the strangers on the street and everyone I meet the love I found in you. And as I walk I pray that I will grow closer to you in every way. Help me be strong when I feel weak. Set me in the right direction though there are many I may seek. Everyday that I live in you, let others see your love, and let me be as a shadow. Help me know that everything will be okay as you work in me everyday. I pray that I will be an instrument for you to use and that one day I will walk with you on the streets of gold beside the crystal sea. Lord I know you will always be with me. This is my only prayer.
Amen.